today a very good friend died. she was in terrible pain towards the end, and i know she's better off gone but she's left a big hole in my heart. never knew a hole could hurt so much too... i did manage to spend some time with her. even though one never discussed such things, i think she knew exactly how i felt about her, and how much she meant to me.
how does one go about deleting her name from my mobile phone, from my contacts details in all my address books? she was the first one i would think of when i got some typical 'womanly' or kooky forwards; could almost hear her laugh while reading it. did she know how much she meant to me? how precious she was to me? i think she did. maybe i'll feel better knowing that she did. go in peace, sita. know you were loved; you'll be missed, but you'll always be there in that special place in my heart. now when i pray to the powers that be, i'll pray not for you, but to you.
